I always ask myself, do I want to write, OR do I want to be a famous blogger?
I love writing…but the idea of being read by a large audience thrills me. Wrong or not, I strongly desire to be freshly pressed one day. Last night I had a dream about it. I dreamt that I was freshly pressed – featured on the home page of wordpress, thus triggering a billion visits, likes, follows, and comments. It felt so real, to the point that I woke up convinced it was true. But no, it wasn’t my turn to be overwhelmed with happiness. There is a saying that goes like this, “Some people dream of great accomplishments, while others stay awake and do it.” Well, in my eyes I’ve done both. I stayed awake and dreamt. I dreamt and stayed awake. Nonetheless, the e-mail titled “Congratulations you’ve been Freshly Pressed” never came.
Ha. I wish. I’m nowhere near becoming famous. Not even my friends read my blog. Family members mostly…two of them. My boyfriend. Maybe one other friend. A couple of nice bloggers. Another couple of curious googlers. According to Google Webmaster Tools, they google stuff like, I love vodka, Russian vodka, pliny the elder beer, village women bathing in pond, russia funny, coca cola vintage cooler, typical russian women, shoulder jokes, sad old man, balalaika apple, lovely love, banya sex, Scarlett Johansson nude, among others. Who knows, maybe if I start “writing” about those topics, people would actually “read” my blog more often. I mean, who wouldn’t want to “read” about nude Scarlett Johansson bathing in a pond? Or a sad old man playing the balalaika while making lovely love in the banya? I’m pretty sure that could boost up my traffic. I don’t know if it would get me freshly pressed, but I would definitely have more clicks from Google.
“When you are picking a hobby, a job, or simply looking for something that interests you, make your decision with the assumption that you will not receive any fame, fortune, or recognition for your hard work, other than the enjoyment of the hobby itself.” (The Forward Mind)
That is exactly my goal. I plan to continue writing about boring Russian poets and Russian culture. ‘Cause afterall, that is what I’m passionate about. I know I would probably be better off writing about popular winter boots this season, or a tutorial on how to find a good Russian wife online, but forget about that. I’m gonna write about Pushkin. Why can’t nerdy be trendy? I heard it was in. I mean, it’s quite popular to dress up like a sexy nerd for Halloween… so it must be in… riiiight? *crosses fingers*
As Churchill once said, “Success is walking from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm.”
Thus, keep walking kitten. You’ve got a long road ahead of you.